Why do I feel this way? Please help me?

Hello, my name is Miguel. I am Mexican... But not proud. (Before you continue I would like you to know that I do not choose to be this way and I am ashamed at myself, and I am not racist) Okay so lately I have felt really embarrassed and ashamed that I am Mexican. I just don't want to live like this anymore. I have been seeing these videos on YouTube called "You know your Mexican if) and I was surprised that a lot of those stereotypes applied to me and my family. A lot of times I think to myself "I don't want to be Mexican anymore" I don't know why I feel this way. I know some of you are thinking "This guy dosent appreciate his Mexican heritage" or "This guy is raicist/ ignorant" Please don't think that of me, I do appreciate being Mexican, and I will NEVER be raicist. Now I will explain why I'm annoyed my Mexican people/things: I am getting annoyed by the Spanish language, Mexico is annoying me, the Mexican people are annoying, the cholo mexicans think Mexico Is the best country in the world, I'm getting tired of eating Mexican food every day, The Mexican dads always choose violence to discipline their children, the Spanish tv/ radio is extremely annoying, I don't like Mexican parties, pretty much anything else Mexican! My parents came from Mexico so I always need to talk to them in Spanish even though my vernacular is English. I am a very sighlent person I choose not to be celebrate, but the Mexican Herritage is very festive at parties. I've been to Mexico and I NEVER want to go back EVER! I always make an excuse like "I need to focus on my school studies" or "I get car sick" but my parents got me a passport and it's almost summer, but I still don't want to go! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!! I love being American, and I admire the Japanese culture very much.I speak Japanese, I watch Japanese Anime, I even eat with chopsticks. I would rather be American/ Japanese than American/ Mexican. (once again I don't want to feel this way and I am not raicist!) Please help me! :(